Beginning

 I used to write a lot. Blog posts, social media posts, poems, stories, and journals. I've always liked writing, but it can be such a challenge to get thoughts into words. Especially words that make sense or relay the things I would want them to. Once, I could write something daily, then I had some writers block and it's like I never really recovered.  I created this blog over a year ago, and it's sat barren and silent. Because I can say anything here. But what do I want to say? When I think of it, I wonder what it is that makes something worth reading? Do I want to share not just the good parts to life but the parts that are grim or grief ridden?

What I consistently revert back to is something I value highly in life. Authenticity. It is too common to play parts, placate people, and become a void of a person. We read our bibles and quote scripture but our behavior is the opposite. We edit ourselves to become palatable to the masses.  We have our morals, and ethics, but when push comes to shove those morals and ethics waver and change based upon who the audience is.  It is something I dislike.  I don't need people to believe, or see the world just the way I do. I need people to be themselves. Be weird. Be strange. Be yourself. Because even if you are just a flawed person, I can tolerate that. I can accept that.  It is very hard for me to swallow false pretenses and fake personality.

I feel like if I chose to write, then I am choosing to be myself.  I am choosing to share the things I don't always want to share.  Because I cannot be a watered down version of who I am. I cannot claim to choose authenticity and then write about how perfect life is. Because life isn't perfect. It's not fair or kind. Sometimes it is brutal. Sometimes you want to give up.  Sometimes you feel uncomfortable to be vulnerable, but vulnerability is one of the most beautiful strengths.

So, in closing of this post that is probably too short, or maybe it's just right, I hope you enjoy the ride.

If you want to know what that honesty looks like in practice, start here.